Wednesday, March 28, 2007 ;
it happened
again. yep. twice in a row. i felt sum distance between me and weili again. but this tym,
its not one-sided.
she was suppose to wait for me . but she left with qianying.
i was freakin pissed.
i tot dat the reason was she wanted to meet me is because she wanted sumone
to accompany her, so wen she saw qianying , she freakin left. i was not angry actually. more like
sad. if i were waiting for her, i would be waiting cos she is my bestie. i always tot it was like this
for the entire day until cass told me wad happened actually and it proved otherwise. i was so
ashamed at the moment of truth. wad am i thinking when i ignored weili ? no wait. was i even
thinking when i ignored her ? she must be feeling so hurt. how stupid of me. it was my foolish
pride. i knew i shoulnt haf jumped into conclusion. stupid.stupid.stupid. but heng-ly, she said
it was fine. so nice of her to do dat. i realised i could not be like myself without her. no im not
saying this for the sake of sayin it. im sayin it cos i mean it. thanks cass for knocking me out.
and oh yes. weili wasnt being close to cass cos she was relli close to her . i was ignoring her.
again my freakin fault. and why was i ignoring her . cus i tot she forgot bout me.
how can i be so freakin stupid . its clear now weili. dun worry. u are all that i haf left.
anyting dat doesnt kill us makes us stronger. i wont die so easily. im
headstrong.
i'll take u on. i'll take anyting on .
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
4:46 PM
Tuesday, March 27, 2007 ;
Finally.
WEILI and CASS are both free today . my mum's 7 days leave is over . its was killing
me.
Having my mum tagging me relli closely instead of my besties. it's terrible. after the usual super
boring lessons, quarrels with yihong, close encounters to death, i and weili and cass went to
northpoint. we had plan to go with vivian and her gang. but.but. i dunno where they GO !
:/ took neoprints with dem. so hyper funny. laff till my skull gona break. looks like ive been wasting
my money on neoprints. just took one not so long ago.dats why i so fast POK liao. den this cass
can't freakin stop SMS-ing *ahem* . she seem so suspicious. she dun even lemme read. wad are
u up ?
SNEAKY WEAKY BLEAKY TEAKY CASSIE !! ( global laming ... )
anyway, just yesterday i was sad cus weili and cass were ignoring me. well, not ignoring,
but like .
FORGOTTON .
OMGOSH. forgotton bout
ME.of all people to forget.
or at least dats wad I think. den i told
CANGE she was like. u must be angry huh . actually more like sad den angry. u noe how it feels?
like ur sum kinda loser
outcast. turns out i misunderstood cos today during science lesson
weili and cass actually partner each other and kinda forgotton bout me . 'til cass asked me to
stand wid em.i said that i had no partner, stand behind . i think they were quite sad. cos they
didnt partner each other and walked seperate ways . in the ferst place i was quite, erm .. sadistic. i was pleased dat they felt sad cos of me. maybe i just needed some attention but wen i tot bout it. i had been a total bitch. i was so freakin selfish . i was actually happy. OMGOSH. why.why.why.
SO SORRY BABES. i dun mean to be like that. i didnt haf control of my emotions !
ltr during history, i asked cass if *ahem* was closer den weili . she was like,
HELL NO.
NONO. NOT CLOSER DEN THE TWO OF U ! i felt so guilty.
SORRY FOR SINNING ,GOD.but. yeah, im fine . and recovering from my sadistic - ness .
SORRY BABES !
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
5:12 PM
Saturday, March 24, 2007 ;
Everyday's been terrible .
Not to mention , my mum is on sum kind of vacation leave for a whole week.Not dat i dun
like her bein around, but she is goin to monitor me relli closely.like take for example , she refused
to let me play with weili today. she wants me to study.i hope she takes me shopping tomorrow though.anyway, there's a poem for all my dear frens. i love all of you. i dun noe how long we'll stay together like this. but i hope the answer is forever.
you're just like my angel.an angel that forever protects me.from then on, i was no longer hurt .
you're just like my angel. an angel that keeps me truly happy.and thanks to you, i learnt how to soar into the sky.
i soared thru the simpleness of life and i learnt that love is important, its treasure.its doesn't matter how the world may become sumday, because i noe that when i have u around i'll be safe.
just like a child who need a shoulder to cry on.
just like tears that need the cheek to cry.
and you're just like my angel who gives me secureness and the strength to carry on.
just like a poet needs the moon.
just like the dolphin needs the waves.
you're my angel.
my first and last angel.
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
11:27 AM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007 ;
HAAA! ( i dunno why i started my blog laffing :DD ) . Didnt post for a few days. was trying to edit my blog's codes .
SIBEI PEKCHEK . anyways , i went to watch 'THE PURSUIT of HAPPYNESS'.
SO NICEE ! its about this intellegent guy who is poor and didnt receive any proper education .
so he went to pursue his dream. and guess wad. his dream is to give him son a good life. ( SO TOUCHING ! ) *sobs*
his bitchy wife left him . wad a loser . he went to be a BROKER .so he's a multi-millionaire.
and best of all ! this story is totally true ! i just LOVE happy endings ! after all that fun .
HELL AWAITS. SCHOOL STARTS.i hate homework.i hate wasting one hour goin to school and back.i hate the boring lessons.( bored to tears ) i hate homework. oh wait. i said that .
just got my results back . i failed english and history. SO SAD. so i must JIAYOU all the way !
but i dun tink i will retain . i hope NOT ! english is SO tough . it'll be MIRACLE if anyone got an
A or sumting.
besides, i tink i failed english cos i didnt hand up one of my assignment . *CRIES*
MUST shutup and PAY attention at class .
i bonded with vivian and kelly and gekhwee and cuishan. YIPEE ! the more the frens the merrier . they're such darlings ! ( i didnt forget ESTH.CASS.CANGE.JIAYU babes )
now so much STINKIN PUKIN projects. have history to chiong . i aint failing history TWICE in a row !
:DDDD
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
6:35 PM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007 ;
okay.
this post is for
WEILI and
CASS.
guyys.
i know dat these few days ,
we haven been dat close .
u guys had your track and field.
basketball trainings .
friendly match cuming up.
X-country too.
i wont be there wid u physically.
but just to let u noe.
i'd be cheering u on.
in my
heart.
even if one day.
just one day.
u guys ever nid my help.
if u guys nid a shoulder to cry on.
i'll be there.
even if one day.
maybe one day.
u guys forgotten about me.
just to let u noe.
i wont.
even if one day.
just one day.
u guys r free to hang out.
ring me up.
i'll be there.
here's to you.
"
JIAYOU".
all the way.
no more "laughing twins".
"just the three of us"
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
11:41 AM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007 ;
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
I'm barely hangin' on
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
12:06 PM
