Wednesday, March 28, 2007 ;
it happened
again. yep. twice in a row. i felt sum distance between me and weili again. but this tym,
its not one-sided.
she was suppose to wait for me . but she left with qianying.
i was freakin pissed.
i tot dat the reason was she wanted to meet me is because she wanted sumone
to accompany her, so wen she saw qianying , she freakin left. i was not angry actually. more like
sad. if i were waiting for her, i would be waiting cos she is my bestie. i always tot it was like this
for the entire day until cass told me wad happened actually and it proved otherwise. i was so
ashamed at the moment of truth. wad am i thinking when i ignored weili ? no wait. was i even
thinking when i ignored her ? she must be feeling so hurt. how stupid of me. it was my foolish
pride. i knew i shoulnt haf jumped into conclusion. stupid.stupid.stupid. but heng-ly, she said
it was fine. so nice of her to do dat. i realised i could not be like myself without her. no im not
saying this for the sake of sayin it. im sayin it cos i mean it. thanks cass for knocking me out.
and oh yes. weili wasnt being close to cass cos she was relli close to her . i was ignoring her.
again my freakin fault. and why was i ignoring her . cus i tot she forgot bout me.
how can i be so freakin stupid . its clear now weili. dun worry. u are all that i haf left.
anyting dat doesnt kill us makes us stronger. i wont die so easily. im
headstrong.
i'll take u on. i'll take anyting on .
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
4:46 PM
