Wednesday, August 22, 2007 ;
how can i be feeling so depresssed all the time for no practical reason? im quite sure i have mooved on. i've learnt to ' bounce back ', how mrs lee would put it.
i think. but i should right? oh, never mind. so what gives? i've done ookay so far for my term test, til they give out the chinese tmr. which i am probaly gonna fail altho i am in hcl. im even embarrassed to even say i am in hcl. my chinese sucks to the core. ooooh, maybe during psle they made some kinda mistake. i cant even paint a happy face. i've never really felt happy all this while, but i tried to. i promised
myself everyday. or maybe i wanted everything to be perfect. i wanted 20/20 for geography. how can this be? i wasnt even like such an asshole. i just wanna go into
hibernation for really really really looong. i just wanna run away from every fucking thing.
wad a
coward! wadever happened to me anyway? my courage lacked. and how can i be preaching to
cuishan, telling her to kan kai. and to dismiss the rumors to hell. i tot the rumor was funny in the first place until she cried in front of me today. i dun know how to handle it. and recently with all the stress she has, just made things worst. i want to console her, but i dun know how. i cant even console myself. wad kinda fren am i anyway? i hate myself. i use to love myself when everything was oh-so-perfect, just like a fairytale. happiness is short-lived. that's why u can only pursuit it, not acheive it. will it be me against the world or hibernation forever?
well, i'll wait and see. i write my own story right?
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
8:33 PM
