Tuesday, October 30, 2007 ;
because i just cant plaster a fucking smile on my face all the time.
as much as i want to be uber cheerful every moment of my life,
i just cant.
especially when things aren't going the way it's suppose to be.
i thought i had it all.
it seemed like i was almost there.
well, you just don't know me.
i don't even know me.
but at least i hope the loud music playing will drown my misery.
just for a while.
i tried to see the good things in life.
but the good things are so difficult to find.
what's beneath that mega-watt smile?
and that boisterous laughter.
im sure it's just all the hurts.
aint it another pretence?
all the things that are precious to me..
i let it slip, just cos i didnt have the guts.
i hate myself for doing so.
i put my faith in you.
what a stupid thing to do.
i thought maybe you were different.
i really do.
i'll cry my lungs out.
i'll keep searching.
and waiting.
even if it means to the depths of time.
til i find..
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
2:56 PM
