Sunday, October 28, 2007 ;
I've always thought you were a really good fren.
We did have frequent quarrels, but I loved how you would always sacrifice for me.
Although you sometimes do expect me to do the same.
You're not selfless, neither are you selfish.
Well, that's the way you are. A flaw here and there.
So have if ever occurred to you that I am not impeccable?
I am not like Suyi. Cos that's the way I am.
I joke around, maybe a little too much.
My insensitivity hurt you. But that was never intentional.
What about you?
You ripped my heart. Twice. And at that time,
My feelings weren't taken into your consideration.
How you stared at me, when you said " Fuck you ".
Made me realise maybe you are not how you are. Not anymore.
You even accuse me of using " fuck " in your face.
When I did not. Go ask the world. I would never, ever, hurt my frens that way.
I hate it when you can betray your conscience just to prove me wrong.
All this. Just of what?
Cos I said " Look who's talking? ".
What have I done wrong now?
No biggie, it's just you're girlfriend saying " Fuck you ". In your face. Twice.
Yeaaa riiiiiiiight.
The hurt you caused. It's enough for me to hide and cry.
And so you wondered why I chose not to confide on you.
It's my choice who to confide in.
Say sorry a thousand times doesn't change the fact it didn't happened.
Forgive, forget. Sorry, I'm not that kinda person.
I'm not about to let people step over me. Hurting my feelings at free will.
We could always be ' Hi-bye ' frens. But I doubt anything more.
It just costs too much heartbreaks.
Sorry for my unintentional hurtings, and thanks for the times.
It was fun while it lasted.
I'm saying all this, so I hope it will never drag on.
That's all I have to say, and will say.
Shermin, thanks for listening to me. Haven't heard me cry, huh? Guess that must have freaked you out. I'm sorry Kelly, that because of us you didn't enjoy yourself fully. I'll make up.
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
8:38 PM
