Saturday, April 28, 2007 ;
YAY!
my aunt's gonna visit !
i miss her so much!
especially when she just recovered from her flu :/
but still.
SHE'S GONNA VISIT!
ayeaye.
and ..
im gonna BAKKEEE cookies.
YIPEE.
provided i can find NORMAL sugar.
not some weird MOLASESS sugar.
eek.
PS:
if you love somebody.
tell them so.
it'll never hurt.
and.
i dreamt of RAIN
:)
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
11:41 AM
Friday, April 27, 2007 ;
I'm so afraid.
I'm afraid that people might see
who i really am.
so i hide it.
i'm cool and perky.
but inside im crumbling.
into a thousand million pieces.
i know i cant hide it foever.
sometimes the mask slips off.
and im exposed.
i feel so vulnerable.
everybody shuns me.
but when i put my mask back on.
i'm safe once more.
but the fear comes back again.
just like it always does.
then im crying for help inside.
the mask comes off.
that's when i feel Him.
He held my hand.
He said
"Do not fear, my child.
For I will always love you as who you are.
And I will always be with you,"
and den.
peace came over me.
and i am no afraid no more.
i noe He loves me like who i am.
Just like that.
the pain is too
much to bear.
i let go.
it wont hurt me anymore.
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
6:09 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2007 ;
Cass. u are ryt.
its time to let go.
but sumtimes.
letting go is the hardest thing.
Thanks for your advice.
i know ima not the greastest
fren i cud've been.
im sorry.
and thanks.
isnt there still tml ?
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
1:13 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007 ;
im so moody today.
sumthing is missing.
i wanna cry out loud.
only you will mock.
wad happened.
everything flashed thru.
Well you can hide a lot about yourself.
But honey,
what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin
But the past ain't through with you.
at least my dearie peanut told me YT might have netball. ;DD
netball rocks my entire freakin socks.
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
8:26 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007 ;
Broken this fragile thing now.
I can't pick up the pieces.
And I've thrown my words all around.
I can't give you a reason.
I feel so broken up.
And I give up.
I just want to tell you so you know.
Here I go.
I'll scream my lungs out and try to get to you.
I let go, but there's just no one that knows me like you do.
Made my mistakes,and let you down.
I can't hold on for too long.
Ran my whole life in the ground.
I can't get up when you're gone.
And something's breaking up.
I won't walk out until you know.
Should i leave a note for you.
Cos' I know you can see right through me.
So I shall let go and you will find someone.
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
6:03 PM
Saturday, April 7, 2007 ;
Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside.
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know.
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside.
There's a heart that must be
Free to fly.
That burns with a need to know
The reason why.
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel.
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide.
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
11:16 AM
Wednesday, April 4, 2007 ;
You ask me, how am I.
Well I'm still standing, aren't I.
That's something, and the only one thing that's gone my way
It's so hard, to pretend, like is everything ok now
when inside, I still cry for yesterday
This is my unhappy day.
But I lie, saying it's just another day
I wonder if you know just how much I'm bleeding.
I hang around to numb the hours.
To get through without you is so hard.
I wish I could return to get back to my former life
Pretending our ending was not so bad.
It pains me to see you away.
I doubt you'll ever feel it.
But this is my devastating ending.
I still smile like any other day.
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
5:53 PM
Sunday, April 1, 2007 ;
ohgosh.yesterday totally
rocks.okay maybe not the fact i reached home 11 plus. and im like so grounded for a month.i and weili and cass had just blew a record.
we took like what. 6,7 neoprints yesterday.totally rocks. actually.
yesterday was planned for the
FISHBONE CAFE. but its not relli DAT fun, compared to taking 6 neoprints.so we kinda erm,
sneaked off. OOPS.but still i didnt regret. besides i took the LRT. so fun.it goes, WHEE~~
cass kept rubbing in the fact i and weili haven took the LRT before. thanks cass. and we ate so much JAP BALLS. OISHI !
cassie in LRT!
weili love cass.cass love popcorn. HEY! wad bout me!
fickleminded. now she loves the marshmellows.
me and cass.
on the way bak. finally.
we'll stay like this.
FOREVER. wont we?
The pain sets in,
&I don't wanna cry,
I only feel gravity
&I wonder why;
1:45 PM
